feeling really rubbish today!
last night Ricky's older sister Leanne, who is a good friend of mine and my mum's and also my chemistry tutor decided to have a go at me because I was friends on facebook with her ex boyfriend. the whole thing is pathetic because it was completely innocent, i'd added him when they were together when the two of them, myself and Ricky had gone out for the day. So she sent me a really long text about how i've stabbed her in the back? this upset me alot, firstly because I'd added him months ago and didn't even realise he'd accepted... so obviously my mum wasn't very happy that she'd upset me so they ended up having a "discussion" about it too.
i'm sick to death of people who i think are close to me having a go at me all the time. first all my girl friends, then ricky, and now leanne too. I just wish people would give me a break because I really don't see what I'm doing wrong. I'm just minding my own business, trying to get myself back on track, working for exams, and things like this keep knocking me back down.
to top it all off, woke up in so much pain, hands all swollen and so sore. I have a maths exam tomorrow, and all i'm able to do is watch revision videos as when i try to do past papers i just can't write! mum dad and ruben all gone out to a friends for the afternoon. so i'm stuck in bed trying to revise, feeling rubbish emotionally and physically! and this rain isn't helping either!


rant over.
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Hi Hannah

some people can be so mean
hugs to you,good diea your resting hands revison videos are good.
Try not to let her insecurites get to you hun,some people dont get that a man can have female freinds and not be in relationship.
your doing great fact your watching revsion videos will keep it fresh in your head for tomorrow.
all very best luck.

for your hands do you have ice packs,or mums frozen epas wrapped in cloth,pillow case,tea towel to ease swollen hands thats what im doing with mine today also flaring in hands.
for no more 5 to 10 mins at time and not frozen ice pack no skin directly or it burns skin.#
lv melly

but the thing is, i haven't even spoken to him! i didn't realise he was even on there - i dont go on it much.
i just think it's silly, but at the same time without sounding selfish, she knows ive been through a tough time recently and that i can't cope with any kind of conflict at the moment. she did text in the night all apologetic but the fact is it made me panicky and upset again.
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Hi Hannah,

Sorry you are not feeling good today.
If Leanne has apologised, accept it and move on, show her you can act grown up even if she can't.
Life's too short to let things like that upset you, especially when such stress makes you ill.
This sort of thing happens all the time as you go through life, finding that people who you thought were friends can turn and be nasty to you, it's not because you have RA, but the fact that you have RA and are in constant pain probably makes it harder for you to cope with.
You will learn to deal with it and rise above it as you get older.
Try to forget the upset now and just concentrate on yourself, and if you have been watching revision DVDs all day, put a good chickflick in to watch now, you deserve a break!
Good luck with the exam tomorrow!

Love and hugs, Doreen xx

Don't be embarrassed Hannah, we all know what it's like when the RA gets us down and we cry at the drop of a hat!
Glad you are having some time off from revising tonight, I hope you have a good time with your friend.

Love, Doreen xx

Hi Anne,

I am able to have a scribe if I need one, I've had this in the past... but for some reason I really don't like it, especially with maths I find telling the person what to write and going through it all is harder than the exam itself! I find things easier to work out if I can do it myself. Bit of a problem really because sometimes there is not other option!
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Hi Hannah,

I can understand how difficult using someone to scribe for you especially in maths would be, but if you need to use the facility use it, if you feel when you get the results that they are not what you expected then you could always re-take them later on.

Oh Hannah I really do feel for you, I've got two teenage boys and I've been through the exam process with both of them, at least you are trying to revise they never bothered and their results showed it. Mind you one of them broke his left hand playing football the week before exams started but that was no excuse because he is right handed.

Really really hope all is ok tomorrow, Anne x

Hi Hannah

Sorry to read of your problems but well done with all your revision My three boys have exams at the moment, 1 doing GCSEs like you (but Year 10 modules) and two doing AS levels, so I know where you are coming from. Try to keep a clear head and I'm sure you will do so well.

Enjoy a treat every now and again and look after yourself. Thinking of you in the coming weeks.

Lyn x

Why on earth should you have to be examined on Islam?? What's that all about then.....surely that can't be part of the curriculum!!!

Well, I wouldn't give it a second thought! There's much more important stuff in life than that....unless you're a moslem of course! What do you fancy doing when you leave school?